i am doing operation christmas child thru my church. it is wonderful. thanks for the invite thouhg.

Hi Lisa, I have so many emotions right now I don't know where to start. He accessed my computer while I was work yesterday and printed out conversations between me and my ex who was my first love. The conversations revolved around our past, his love of sex, his wife, my kids, and me getting my tonsils out. A later conversation that occured a week after my husband decided to leave included him trying to get me to come to where he lives to get some stress relief in the form of sex. I gave him sarcastic answers and reasons why that wouldn't happen. Then I changed the subject. He confronted me about these IM messages last night and also said that he was told by a mutual friend that I had moved on to another person who is also a mutual friend. That the mutual friend initiated it and that I was accepting it. This isn't true. The mutual friend in question did initiate, but I refused saying I was only his friend that I wanted my husband back. My husband has said that if I get nasty when we go to court (no he hasn't asked for a divorce) that he will bring this up. This really angered me. One, I wouldn't get nasty, and two, why would he feel he could use this when he obtained it illegally? He invaded my privacy and betrayed my trust even more. He claims that I am his best friend and that he cares for me, but that he doesn't love me like a wife. He thinks that everything that he's done for and with me is because he felt he owed it to me. But he also says he feels like an ass because he lied to me about his feelings all these years and took away 15 years of my life. He also says he doesn't regret our marriage because we wouldn't have had our kids without it. On top of that, he says he's talking to God and that God has told him through a neutral person (someone who didn't know we'd seperated) that he is on the right path. I could have sworn that God didn't tell men to leave their wives and children.

Hi Lisa. No change at this point. I am currently on Vacation with my father at the most beautiful place have ever been. I'm hoping hat by being away for a few days she may realize that she misses me. She did manage to tell me that she got invited to many parties his weekend but cant go because it's her weekend to watch the kids. I just played it cool and said, be glad you have so many people that want to spend time with you. Thank you for asking.