more questions 

We went to counseling on thursday. It seemed to leave me with more questions than answers. She is not cheating, but I have my guard up because whenever we are having a good time she has a way of killing it. Mostly by wanting to go to her friends house, when I just want to live for the moment. Our assignment for the weekend was to go on a date just the two of us, never happened. I let the 4th of july excuse work for her. I did give her an hour long massage thursday night. Friday night she went to kristen's house (where she is now), after laying with me a few minutes. Saturday we went to the beach and met up with her dad and new girlfriend. Saturday night we checked out the fireworks. Sunday she went to Samantha's house to go swimming. Later that night she wanted some and we did. The only thing is it bothered me because just thursday I heard "I just don't know if I'm IN LOVE with him anymore" again ( I swear everytime I hear that a piece of me dies). I didn't go to sleep till 5a.m. this morning and got up at 7. I used to have the answers but now I just have questions. Even worse (in a way) she tells me this morning "I love you". This leaves me wondering what the hell has changed in a few days. I'm so damn confused!