I don't want to hurt her but 

I don't want to hurt her but I don't want to be around her right now. I just want to dodge her till we get to counseling on thursday becuase I don't want to get in to a heated battle. I just want my feelings to be on neutral ground. Is that weird? I am just so tired of fighting and the things she does to hurt me. She was over at her friends house till 12:30 last night... that gets under my skin. I am just going to wait and let it out at counseling. In the meantime I'll just put it in my notebook. I wish I didn't have these hurt feelings that seem to keep me from showing how I feel for her. I just refuse to be a doormat. Yes, I didn't show her enough how I felt before that is my fault but I don't see how it would give her the right to walk over me now that I am trying to change.